still still

This is one of those times where it feels like time is standing still. Seconds are ticking by, but things are frozen because you're still in the same situation you were yesterday..

I caught the train from Newcastle to Sydney a few months ago. It was about 4:30am when I got on the train. It was so dark and cold. I got into my sleeping bag and pulled the hood tight around my head so there was only a small slit to see through. Then I slept. It felt then like time was still. I woke and I was still on the train. I was still listening to Sufjan Stevens. Time was obviously passing because the mountains and fields and places we passed through were getting lighter and more awake.. But it felt different to me, I was still in the same place.

Thats how I feel now. I can't explain it very well.

free fall

This is a Video of Joseph Kittinger
I read that for the first part he didn't feel the sensation of falling (cause he was so high up) and had to look up at the balloon to check..

Is life about one big jump? Or is it lots of jumps? Or is it about letting yourself fall without a parachute, because someone will catch you?

cup bump

So I was lying in bed last night having a good old winge to God. It all began pretty normal, but I started getting a bit worked up you know like '...and while I'm at it blahblahblah!'. It escalated and I quickly became more irritated and irrational until it ended up like '..Rararararararara.. and rararrarara!.. So THERE! What do you think of THAT?!' and I sealed the deal by rolling over violently, thrusting the sheets around me as I did.. I was satisfied until a second later the heavy mug sitting on my bed head fell off and cracked me over the forehead!!!

and I swear I heard a voice say 'What do you think of THAT?'

I'm on a health 'bint'

I've figured out the way to perfect health! I've started telling myself as often as I think of it "I'm on a health stint." (Actually the word I want to say is 'Bint' But it's not actually a word meaning what I want it to mean.. The word I want is some sort of mix between 'Stint' and 'Binge'. So.. I'm my head I do actually say 'Bint' but for everybody else's sake I will say 'Stint'.)

Not for any particular reason.. The words just came into my head one day.

Anyway..

I wake up in the morning and go 'I'm on a health stint!!' and go find something to eat that proves the statement. I need to go down the street.. I think of driving the car when into my head pops 'I'm on a health Stint!' So I walk.

So far so good.